REFLECTIONS UPON RETURN: HOW I’VE EXPERIENCED MY FIRST WEEKS BACK HOME AFTER THE CAMINO DE SANTIAGO

And then you are back home. Like a character taken from one novel and placed into another narrative. One you recognise, though uncertain about the details. I remember opening my door, stepping inside my house and being overwhelmed by a feeling of completion: the circle was complete, I returned where I started. The actual journey had come to an end; however, the unease and discomfort that followed marked a new beginning. I knew immediately it was not going to be easy to return to that which I had departed from.

First came the excitement. Finally! No plastic mattresses and no throw away covers that attach themselves to you body during the night. My toilet! I almost hugged my toilet. (I restrained myself though as I realised that would have been a rather strange thing to do.) But the joy I experienced knowing I no longer had to take a dump on a different toilet every day, was out of this world. Taking hot showers, buying food and keeping it in the fridge, washing my clothes longer than the 30 minute quick cycle, rolling out my yoga mat and do yoga whenever I want, wearing ACTUAL clothes, meeting up with all my friends… the list of things that made me super excited about being back home goes on and on.

Unfortunately, the initial excitement didn’t last very long. After a few days, I started to intensely miss being on the road. Getting up early, being on the way, being outside and physically active all day, the rhythm, and, most importantly, the feeling of quiet/peace/space it gave me. Everything had been moving all this time and now it had all stopped. The feeling of standing still made me anxious and irritated. For 3,5 months I was heading somewhere, I had a destination and the movement towards that – in this case – physical location allowed me to open up and work with myself. Returning home, the movement that became so important to me remained absent due to the lack of direction.

So today I asked myself: Where do you want to go? I guess this question calls for for a mini-pilgrimage. It’s time to figure out which direction will be next.

Love,

2 thoughts on “REFLECTIONS UPON RETURN: HOW I’VE EXPERIENCED MY FIRST WEEKS BACK HOME AFTER THE CAMINO DE SANTIAGO

  1. Hi Querien,

    Heb jij de boeken van Victor Franks wel eens gelezen? Zijn meest beroemde ‘De zin van het bestaan’ en bijgaand een samenvatting van zijn andere bekende boek : ‘man’s Search for meaning’. http://benjaminmcevoy.com/7-lessons-learned-mans-search-meaning-viktor-e-frankl-book-review/ .

    Het blijft levensvraag nummer 1 en komt op in mijn leven als eb en vloed. Rustige perioden wisselen elkaar af met onrustige perioden. Dat heb je met ons als ‘denkers’ en ‘voelers’. Volgens mij heet dit ook leven, maar is soms wel erg vermoeiend.

    Veel liefs😘😘

    Op do 5 jul. 2018 om 09:01 schreef when a wayfarer

    > querien posted: “And then you are back home. Like a character taken from > one novel and placed into another narrative. One you recognise, though > uncertain about the details. I remember opening my door, stepping inside my > house and being overwhelmed by a feeling of completi” >

    1. Hi Pauli,

      Super interessant, niet gelezen nog maar ga ik zeker naar kijken. Boeiend artikel ook bedankt! Het komen en gaan klinkt bekend… gelukkig is dat iets dat wel vaststaat 😉

      Liefs,
      Q

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