I messed up. I didn’t think. I just came up with something and did it. Sounds familiar? Of course it does, you’re human!
A while ago, I wrote something about the new direction I wanted to take with my website. I’d been reading and writing more Dutch and thought it was a brilliant idea to revisit this (at times unattainable) part of myself. Likewise, I was curious to find out if there were other Dutch-speaking adventurers and seekers around. Let’s do this, I thought. I wrote some Dutch posts, I posted them and shuffled some stuff around on my website.
And then, all of a sudden, it hit me. This wasn’t it. The measures I took, where not leading me to that which I wanted to obtain. On the contrary! I felt further removed from myself than ever, and lost my connection to the adventurers and seekers I had been writing for. I was walking into the wrong direction – I lost my way. I panicked. What am I doing?! How did I end up here?
Once the panic subsided and I had a think, I decided on the following: I made a big fat mistake, I’d totally changed my mind… and it was totally fine! You know why? I could just turn around, walk back to where I came from and choose to head into another direction.
We are made to seek, explore and wander. The physical road we walk might be linear but the journey inside is rarely straight.
Changing your mind is often conceived as something negative, you become “unreliable” or “ambiguous”. Although the first judgement towards myself was indeed one of dislike, my second reaction was encouraging.
We are made to seek, explore and wander. The physical road we walk might be linear but the journey inside is rarely straight. Encourage yourself to rethink decisions, to choose something different. As in that different choice you might actually encounter that which you were really seeking.
when a wayfarer will be brought back to what I intended it to be – a fixed place to return to when wandering through life… English only 😉